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Bio

Invented Biography of Robin

I was spending my early life in a religious context. I went into a school of monks and studied their wisdom in strict rules, rituals and spiritual prospects.

Their goal was to free our minds. The way to go there was through discipline your body. If you don't have to think about your body because in every ritual it's clear what to do, you can forget your body entirely and your mind is free to go wherever you want.

When my studies were finished, I stayed there for some more years practicing the rituals and freeing my mind. It was a wonderful feeling to let the mind split from the body and let it wander around, seeing wonders of the mental world, or let it explore the own mind and find the construction of the self.

However I wouldn’t say I was a joyful person there. I missed something. And one day a visitor with her child came and asked a question I never forgot. She looked at the strict ritual where every movement was performed in perfection. Afterwards, she came to me – I don’t know why exactly me – and asked maybe more to herself than to me: What does mental freedom mean if it doesn’t reach the action?

Like a gong this question resonated with my whole body, there were goose bubbles all over my skin and I started sweating.

I looked away and saw her child jumping and running amongst the chickens we had in our place, I saw the child smile. I never saw one of my teachers smile in all those years even though they all preached the joy of the freed mind.

I left the visitor. I meditated and cried. Because she was true. What is the worth of a freed mind if you don’t embody it?

I decided to leave the school to become a pilgrim of joy. My mind was free – I thought – so I wanted to repair the mind-body split I practiced for nearly my entire life and let my body do as my spirit did all these years: To wander around and feel joy in the wonder of the world.

This journey lasted till this day. I saw many wonders and many horrors. I saw people calling themselves free when in reality they were slaved by work/ family/ thoughts/ money/ poverty/ poetry/ideals/… And I saw people who were in very unfree situations drawing more freedom out of this, than the others of their actual possibilities.

I asked myself how freedom could be taught.

Only to give freedom is not doing anything. They don’t know the gift of freedom. They don’t necessarily use and explore free space.

Which boarders are to give so that they could be free and get to use their ability to explore and expand their mind and body freedom?